This is such a risky post. I think it was important I wrote it down, at first it was just a journal entry, but towards its end, I was fully convinced the Spirit of God wanted me to share it.
It is risky because contrary to all the times when I write about people, I take permission, with this one, I have neither taken permission nor received consent so I’m keeping names all private but still sharing ‘our story’.
It has to be 2 weeks ago now, she was so excited about her birthday which is today, she did it all, got her legs waxed, got her eyebrows trimmed and I think even got lashes done. I was not the celebrant but her vibe leading to today was so contagious. I was waking up each day and doing a mental countdown to today.
I remember last week I left her a message and I said ‘This year is not even ready for you!‘ and she replied laughing and said ‘Yesssss, we taking it by force!!!‘, I remember laughing so hard when I saw that reply because if you know her well, you know how bubbly she is and how she could have said that physically.
I was ready to wake up today and make all the noise about her birthday. Her writing back in the day was one of the inspirations for me to even start a blog so beyond our friendship, is someone I’ve also looked up to.
Two days before today, I hear some horrible news about a brain surgery. I could not even accept it, I kept thinking “this could have been anytime but now God, not now”. But it was true and it so happened that she only got out of ICU today, her birthday. The day we were suppose to ‘take it by force‘.
Its been a rush of emotions for me personally cause I was reminded of how we can make plans today with no certainty of what tomorrow will look like. On meditation, the Holy Spirit said “it is all by my grace“, and for a moment, we might have forgotten that. That each day we get to live, it is by His grace.
This post is a reminder to someone else, don’t get too comfortable, live life as intentionally as you can.
And to ‘Her’, (cause I know you’ll see this),
I see why you live life on the edge, this revealed why even more for me, thank you for teaching me to accept adventure and spontaneity. Thank you for showing me that I don’t always have to see the ground before I take the leap, sometimes the hope that I land safe is enough. I might never get to your level, but I’m definitely not in the ‘safe zone’ anymore.
Nothing will ever take your joy. The thing that will attempt has not even been made.
You gave us all a scare, but we are comforted in the Father knowing that joy comes in the morning.
I am sorry you prepared that much for today only to be found unconscious in a hospital bed but I am convinced that God will give you double for this one.
We hope you loved your flowers, it was the least we could do.
Sending all my love, God bless you.
This year will be nothing like today and I say it both as a prophetic message and as a prayer.
I love you!, Happy Birthday x
If you can, please leave her a birthday message in the comment section, I know it’ll melt her heart