I stumbled on a page a few weeks ago on Instagram, I really love aesthetically pleasing feeds and this person’s arrangement happened to catch my attention. Her first post fortunately was on 20 facts about her, so I busied myself reading 20 facts about this stranger who curated such a beautiful feed.
I am quite a fast reader so I read somethings before I get to them, lol. I know it sounds weird but it happens quite often, I can read the next 2-3 sentences in a page before my brain actually gets to settle on them squarely, I think it is a peripheral ability that I have developed over time with how often I read.
So while reading her number 7 fact, my eyes had seen and read 8,9,10 and 11 already. I think it was number 10 that caught my attention, it read “I don’t know about you but heaven sounds stressful to me, like won’t we be tired? worshipping every single minute of the day“
My mind did a quick ‘wowww‘ spin, but I finished reading through, liked it even and then closed off to get back to the research work I was doing. A week+ later, my mind was still glancing back to the picture and the words and I wondered why, so I started meditating on it without even realising and the Holy Spirit said something to me, He said “I love that kind of boldness“. I know this sounds weird, and I’ll explain it further.
You see, the kingdom of God is for the ‘childlike‘ (Matthew 18:3), note that it is childlike, not childish, there is a difference.
Have you ever observed the fearlessness and boldness of Children?
I once overheard a 4-year-old telling an adult that “I will report you to my daddy and He will come and beat you“, She saw the size of this adult, noted what the adult had done and gauged her dad to the adult and informed this adult boldly that ‘even if I cannot beat you, my daddy will do it for me’. This is the innocent boldness that most children have. They are never fearful to inform their parents of their true feelings, particularly if they have grown in a home that allows them to freely express themselves. They boldly admit how they feel and it is from there that parents start training them on what thoughts need to come out in public and which ones need to stay inside till we get home.
This lady on IG had hacked a dimension of ‘childlikeness’. I don’t know what level of faith she is on, I do not know also what her thought process was before writing that fact about herself, but I know that if she could even think of heaven and know that there is a chance of eternity there, she might have a reasonable knowledge of God.
This might be me assuming but it still supports the point the Holy Spirit was helping me understand either way.
This girl helped me to sit and ask myself if there are certain fears I have of God and heaven that I have been too scared or shy to voice out. A lot of people are in same boat, we’re thinking ‘let me not say or think this thing before I blaspheme‘, but the Holy Spirit was teaching me that reverence and fear of God should not paralyse us to the point of not expressing certain feelings to Him.
God is God, He can handle all of us and the best part is that He sees our hearts, while humans may not understand, God does because He sees the motives and intentions behind the words. Some people might have read that and written her off like “and this one wants to enter heaven?“, but the God who sees her heart knows where it has come from.
I am not in anyway normalising what she has said because for me, nothing excites me more than the thought of knowing I will be worshipping God for eternity without a break. I also have seen in God’s word that there will be no pain or weeping in heaven, and being tired is classified under pain for me, so it could be also that she may not have a balanced view of what exactly heaven will be like, and that is fine because we’re all growing and learning through this process and neither of us really ‘get there’. The only ‘there’ even is when we appear before God and we hear ‘Well done good and faithful servant, enter into your rest‘, until then, let us keep running this race.
Just a side note to anyone who harbours thoughts such as this about God or heaven, I want you to know that you are not sinning, sometimes our minds haven’t been renewed to the point of grasping these things and God does not hold us for it because He knows it is a process too, so please voice it out to Him and allow Him show you truly who He is and what eternity with Him will look like!