A letter from Abba:

Dear Leah,
I’ve watched you talk about my grace but deny it’s effect in your life. I’ve seen you dish out grace to the people around you but still insist on working for any act of grace towards you.

While your mind believes that my grace is sufficient, your heart seems used to working to merit or earn anything good, so you silently, in the back of your heart, have plans to work for something I said I’ll give you or do for you freely.

I realise it isn’t your fault. The world you’ve come to meet seems very tough and unkind to people who don’t have enough backup plans but this is where I teach and train you to trust my heart, even when you cannot see my hand.

You’ll never have to earn or merit anything I give you, because the one thing you should’ve earned of merited, I gave you before you realised you needed it.
I want you to work for me by walking with me. I want you to work for me because you realise I’m working through you. I want you to work for me because it’s become your utmost desire and not because you silently hope I’ll notice you and give you that which you’ve asked for.

While I’m God and can do what I want, I’m not a taskmaster. I’m your Father and fathers are committed to their children.
I am committed to you.

Enough of silently doing things to earn my love or my blessings. I give freely and withhold nothing from you because you are Mine, when you come to me, come to me in confidence that I hear and I will answer.

Allow me work in and through you.